Have you ever felt as if you were being held in suspended animation, like something was keeping you from going forward and no matter how hard you try it never changes? Sometimes it feels like punishment, constantly answering to other people’s expectations. I think we often feel this way when we are stuck in a position that we don’t want to be in, but for some reason or another we think we have to be.
I’m tired of life demanding things out of me that don’t set with my soul. What is good and right and ideal isn’t always what speaks to this little nomad. I want to go where I feel colorful and alive. I want to go where the lights shine and the music play and everyone is swirling around with nothing on but love and spirit. I know you’ve felt this way too.
One principle I have held tightly to is respect. Often people expect to be respected for no real reason at all. People throw that word around far too much. Respect your elders, respect the system, respect your spouse. But what we should be respecting is our souls…and the souls of each other. I don’t think it matters who you are… Trusting in your spirit and you journey is far more important than respecting someone else’s wishes just for respecting sake.
I have this rant often because I feel like things are constantly holding people back and it’s sad. I don’t want to feel that way in my life. I want to see it all, feel it all and let my wild heart just dance. We should all be living not enduring. Stepping out of line isn’t always bad. Be spiritually rebellious!
I pulled the hanged man today. A major arcana card is a big energy to pull and represents more spiritual matters. When I looked at this card he whispered, “see life in reverse.” and I thought about how profound that is. It’s exactly what I’ve been talking about…looking at life sideways. Why not do a whole summersault?
The hanged man is a magical character because though he looks inactive, suspended and trapped he is completely content and very busy. I see him as a spiritual guru connecting with the universe allowing the old and worn out, the ego to slip from the crown of his head. Or he is Thor allowing the knowledge to run from his mind to create the runes. Either way he is active, in motion and creating. He sees life from a vantage point that far to many of us fail to see.
Seeing the hanged man makes me rethink my bound up feelings. I want to see it upside down, I want to head bang with the universe! I’m respecting my spiritual call. I’m going to see the unacknowledged opportunities around me. I think it’s best that I step away from what conflicts with me. It’s not worth my time.
Sometimes I think hanging upside down may be exhilarating. Maybe visions would come, maybe your third eye would open more. I believe the hanged man is a nomad as well…he is the hermit meditating on divinity. This card makes me want to wonder the desert, wrapped in exotic textiles…nothing but sand, time and mystery.
I wish you all well on finding your new vision
(c) Shaheen Miro 7/31/2011