Today is my last day of work here in London. I will have completed my first internship…which has been a huge learning experience in more ways than I could have imagined. Next I will return back to school and I am so excited.
After today I have about three days left in London. Not really sure what I will do on my last few days, but I hope they are enjoyable. I really need some rest and relaxation…so my plans will have to be easy going.
I drew the 4 of hearts (cup) and the nine of hearts this morning. I like that the cups have been appearing lately. I guess it’s a reflection of my emotional state lately. I’ve been very aware of my emotions and I’ve been sorting through feelings…learning to let go and forgive.
The 4 of hearts tells us to look at our lives, the things which take our focus, look at what you are dedicating yourself to. Sometimes we get distracted by something that really isn’t worth our time…and once we’ve grown tired of it we still fight the change for fear of what it may bring.
The 9 of cups is my wish card. But here I think it reminds us that our focus, whatever we are channeling our energies into dictates the outcome of our goals and dreams. You cannot bring love into your life if you tell yourself every moment that you are alone and no one wants you. Or you cannot attract prosperity if you tell yourself you don’t have enough. These two cards ask you, “what are you manifesting with your present mindset and how does that match your desires?”
It’s hard to do. I know I struggle with it. Sometimes you really do feel lonely or like you’ll never have enough. Sometimes you want to sit in a corner, cry your eyes out, feeling totally alone in the world. How do you find away out of that darkness? I don’t know if there really is an answer.
I do believe the secret lives in us…the key to it all is that we are powerful and full of grace. No one can tell you what to do, unless you believe them. So don’t be caught in the lie of someone else’s dreaming. Be with your emotions…acknowledge them, be with them and let them go.
I am learning to let go everyday. And learning to forgive. It’s hard work. Sometimes it’s draining, but the more you do the stronger you become. Stand up for yourself at least once in the next week and see how empowered you feel…a massive shift in energy will take place.
Keep on dreaming… With love
(c) Shaheen Miro 8/28/2011