I know that this can be a difficult time of year and this weekend will be jam packed with people, events, stress and fun… so a here is a little insight and inspiration, a little present from the Universe. I hope all of you are well and Happy Holidays.
© Shaheen Miro 12/24/2011
I wanted to write to you, but I don’t really know what to say. I am overwhelmed at the moment with everything that is happening. Here in London there has been an outbreak of riots and they all began in Tottenham about three blocks from the flat I am staying in.
The night it all began it sounded like a warzone outside. The helicopters were so loud and they loomed overhead, ominous and cold and as I watched out the window the thick sent of smoke wafted in warning that something was to come. Looking out flames began to rise over the rooftops of the quaint little houses. They licked the sky like a dragon, burning a relentless path through the lives of helpless people.
Why would anyone feel that it’s okay to harm other people in this way? These fires were set intentionally, as a way of retaliating against the police for killing an innocent man. I don’t know about the man who was killed or the events that took place that night, but I do know that people were acting like animals… using the death of a man to rationalize their complete disregard for life and community.
It’s sad to see pictures of what’s left of the High Road, nothing but the shell of something before, haunted by the shadow of anger and greed. It’s really shocking to know that something like this could happen so fast. The whole thing just felt out of control. It was pure chaos. I wonder if those people realize that they destroyed their community and further segregated themselves. I pray for them and I pray that everyone is safe and can pick up the pieces and start over.
Being in this hostile and uncertain environment has made me feel on edge. It’s unnerving to not know what’s next. People keep saying that it
will all clear up in the next few days, but I keep wondering if that’s true. They’ve gotten a taste and now they want more, hopefully these people are stopped soon.
I keep going back to that night seeing the fire rising high into the night sky. It’s weird to say that I felt a symbolic connection with that fire. I came here to learn something about myself, found myself here in this part of the city and I watched it burn to the ground… in that fire was a part of me. Something old died in the flames, something was taken from me and now I look out at the world seeing things differently. For now it feels tarnished and unsettled… but in time I will begin to see better with these new eyes.
It’s surreal to have seen so much of London and to have experienced so much here. I have permission to return home because of the riots, but for now I will stay because I don’t feel like I am ready to return home. There is something left here to be recovered. It’s not the first time I’ve seen the fire… and it’s not the first time I’ve pulled something from the ashes. Until that last fragment is recovered here, I cannot return to the states.
I am in another area of the city, spending time in the cozy flat of a very gracious friend. Sipping on warm chamomile and listening to the rumble of the train, I feel at ease with life. Being in London has been an adjustment in every sense of the word. I have had to fling myself fearlessly into this situation and not look back. I feel very at ease with change now. I am learning to dance effortlessly with life…letting go of rigid thoughts and feelings.
I wish all of you well and I ask that you send your prayers to the people of London who have been affected by the riots. I ask that a gentle rain fall over the city cleansing it of the pain, the anger and the destruction. I ask that the angels stand tall at every door, gate and town square, safe guarding those who live there from the malicious hands of others.
With love,
Shaheen
© Shaheen Miro 8/9/2011
I feel a little rushed this morning, almost anxious. I stopped for a moment and gently reminded myself that the day will be wonderful and there is no need to rush. I held my amethyst and rose quartz crystals in my hand and invited their spirits into my own.
Yesterday was a wonderful day. I woke up much more refreshed than today… I guess because there was no expectations. I told myself the day would be dedicated to relaxing.
I completed a few chores and a couple online tasks for work and then a set out to connect to my spirit. I drew a few fairies… I guess they are really speaking to me now. I then had to decide whether I wanted to attend a business engagement with my boss or spend some time in the park.
At first I wanted to go to the party with my boss. It sound like a lively evening and there was the possibility that new opportunities could come from it. But I wasn’t inspired by the prospect. I felt she needed the time with her husband. And I needed the time in the park.
I made my way to the park confident in my decision and I found a nice tree to sit under. I spread out a scarf and my books and things and retrieved my iPod so I had some music to inspire me.
I sat there for almost three hours writing and playing with my new cards. I felt so at peace in the grass with the flowers and trees. It was grounding for me and it allowed me to be present in my emotions.
I’ve realized that I am in the process of letting go of old and worn out feelings and ideas. I’m becoming grounded in my dreaming as well. What I thought I wanted before is becoming different now. I’m finding that my dreams have evolved and I believe I am learning the true meaning of grace.
I pulled the knight of pentacles this morning. It’s interesting that pentacles keep showing up. Yesterday it was the 7 of pentacles. I have to ask myself then… What am I building my foundation on? What am I dedicating myself to?
When I see the knight of pentacles I see myself charging onto a new goal, a new idea or dream. He is a sign that I am heading in a different direction and that my change of heart should be welcomed on my walk with destiny.
Seeing him also reminds me to be mindful of small choices. He says, don’t be too impatient. There is a balance that you must achieve when pursuing a dream… You must stay in motion but remain patient.
Drawing him after the 7 of pentacles is a reminder that hard work will pay off. It my be tiresome and disheartening at times… But if it starts with a spark of inspiration it will lead you closer to the dream.
Sometimes I wonder what the hell I’m doing. I think about my life and question if I am wandering aimlessly. But as gypsies always do… I take to the wind. In doubt I just close my eyes and ride.
I want you to know that you are never a fool. No matter how crazy your dreams may be or how much of a mistake you think you’ve made or how hopeless you feel… There is always a light that shines through the night. Just stay faithful to the goal. Remember what the fae said yesterday.
I have questioned a few times why I am here but I remind myself it’s because I listened to the call. Last night I stood in the dark doorway to the back garden and a little gleaming eye caught my attention, so I stepped into the dark and bent down to see better and there stood the little black cat who I’ve seen a few times.
She was so graceful and free. I don’t know what she was doing in our enclosed garden… Other than being my little guide. She almost let me pet her this time. She came up to me and looked me in the eyes for a long while, but she wasn’t ready for me to touch her. So I left her be and thanked her.
She reminded me that I am here for the right reason. I am following a dream, I am listening to my intuition and I am taking my independence.
I wish us all well on our way. Be faithful knowing that like the knight you will ride into your dreams beautiful and strong and though it may be hard work you will reap the reward of the seeds you sow.
Rule your life like a bird in flight…
With love
Shaheen
(c) Shaheen Miro 7/27/2011
