I feel a little rushed this morning, almost anxious. I stopped for a moment and gently reminded myself that the day will be wonderful and there is no need to rush. I held my amethyst and rose quartz crystals in my hand and invited their spirits into my own.
Yesterday was a wonderful day. I woke up much more refreshed than today… I guess because there was no expectations. I told myself the day would be dedicated to relaxing.
I completed a few chores and a couple online tasks for work and then a set out to connect to my spirit. I drew a few fairies… I guess they are really speaking to me now. I then had to decide whether I wanted to attend a business engagement with my boss or spend some time in the park.
At first I wanted to go to the party with my boss. It sound like a lively evening and there was the possibility that new opportunities could come from it. But I wasn’t inspired by the prospect. I felt she needed the time with her husband. And I needed the time in the park.
I made my way to the park confident in my decision and I found a nice tree to sit under. I spread out a scarf and my books and things and retrieved my iPod so I had some music to inspire me.
I sat there for almost three hours writing and playing with my new cards. I felt so at peace in the grass with the flowers and trees. It was grounding for me and it allowed me to be present in my emotions.
I’ve realized that I am in the process of letting go of old and worn out feelings and ideas. I’m becoming grounded in my dreaming as well. What I thought I wanted before is becoming different now. I’m finding that my dreams have evolved and I believe I am learning the true meaning of grace.
I pulled the knight of pentacles this morning. It’s interesting that pentacles keep showing up. Yesterday it was the 7 of pentacles. I have to ask myself then… What am I building my foundation on? What am I dedicating myself to?
When I see the knight of pentacles I see myself charging onto a new goal, a new idea or dream. He is a sign that I am heading in a different direction and that my change of heart should be welcomed on my walk with destiny.
Seeing him also reminds me to be mindful of small choices. He says, don’t be too impatient. There is a balance that you must achieve when pursuing a dream… You must stay in motion but remain patient.
Drawing him after the 7 of pentacles is a reminder that hard work will pay off. It my be tiresome and disheartening at times… But if it starts with a spark of inspiration it will lead you closer to the dream.
Sometimes I wonder what the hell I’m doing. I think about my life and question if I am wandering aimlessly. But as gypsies always do… I take to the wind. In doubt I just close my eyes and ride.
I want you to know that you are never a fool. No matter how crazy your dreams may be or how much of a mistake you think you’ve made or how hopeless you feel… There is always a light that shines through the night. Just stay faithful to the goal. Remember what the fae said yesterday.
I have questioned a few times why I am here but I remind myself it’s because I listened to the call. Last night I stood in the dark doorway to the back garden and a little gleaming eye caught my attention, so I stepped into the dark and bent down to see better and there stood the little black cat who I’ve seen a few times.
She was so graceful and free. I don’t know what she was doing in our enclosed garden… Other than being my little guide. She almost let me pet her this time. She came up to me and looked me in the eyes for a long while, but she wasn’t ready for me to touch her. So I left her be and thanked her.
She reminded me that I am here for the right reason. I am following a dream, I am listening to my intuition and I am taking my independence.
I wish us all well on our way. Be faithful knowing that like the knight you will ride into your dreams beautiful and strong and though it may be hard work you will reap the reward of the seeds you sow.
Rule your life like a bird in flight…
(c) Shaheen Miro 7/27/2011